Your Future Self Is Calling You

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Painting by Tom Thomson

Do you hear it calling you?

Kurt Vonnegut:
“When I was 15, I spent a month working on an archeological dig. I was talking to one of the archeologists one day during our lunch break and he asked those kinds of “getting to know you” questions you ask young people: Do you play sports? What’s your favorite subject? And I told him, no I don’t play any sports. I do theater, I’m in choir, I play the violin and piano, I used to take art classes.
And he went WOW. That’s amazing! And I said, “Oh no, but I’m not any good at ANY of them.”
And he said something then that I will never forget and which absolutely blew my mind because no one had ever said anything like it to me before: “I don’t think being good at things is the point of doing them. I think you’ve got all these wonderful experiences with different skills, and that all teaches you things and makes you an interesting person, no matter how well you do them.”
And that honestly changed my life. Because I went from a failure, someone who hadn’t been talented enough at anything to excel, to someone who did things because I enjoyed them. I had been raised in such an achievement-oriented environment, so inundated with the myth of Talent, that I thought it was only worth doing things if you could “Win” at them.”

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What we call the personality is often a jumble of genuine traits and adopted coping styles that do not reflect our true self at all but the loss of it. Gabor Mate

Growing straight in our society is rare. We are usually bent and formed to fit a small idea of what we might become. We grow around our wounds, those things that “insult our soul,” as Whitman said.

Anything we are in the present has a follow-on future. We are challenged to become who we are meant to be. We have a true self that calls to us from the future if we can hear it calling. Of course, we are taught not to listen. We are given models that diminish us. We try not to show our disappointment, our lack of enthusiasm.

That most true self never stops calling to us as long as we are alive. If we can stop arguing with it, we will notice a surge of energy. Living the inborn meaning of our lives has energy. It has an innate life force, a built-in joy. We are seeded with a purpose, if we can find it.

We find it by listening to everything, starting with our own heart’s desires. When we truly listen we perceive the character and fate of the energies that flow through this river of existence. There are people so sensitive they can look at you and know your future. It would be good to listen to yourself this closely. The character and quotient of the energies you embody affects not only your own future but the future of the cosmos.

We are more connected than we know.

Everything we think, feel and do has an effect on our ancestors and all future generations and reverberates throughout the universe. — Thich Nhat Hanh

We have a cultural myth that we are isolated individuals, alone in a vast impersonal universe. This fantasy causes us a lot of unnecessary pain. It causes pain to radiate from us into the whole of creation. We might want to rethink our assumptions about our context for living. We couldn’t be isolated if we wanted to.

We are not only connected to the web of creation, we are connected to our future. Being true now leads to the fate that is meant for us.

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I occasionally write fiction and also about creativity, loving, language learning and travel. I’m a longtime painter and reader.

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