The shore from which we were deported
You can spend your whole life listening to internal and external messages without ever hearing the voice of your deepest desire… If you have space and silence to listen deeply to yourself, you may find within you a strong desire to help other people, to bring love and compassion to others, to create positive transformation in the world. Whatever your job — whether you lead a corporation, serve food, teach, or take care of others — if you have a strong and clear understanding of your purpose and how your work relates to it, this can be a powerful source of joy in your life.
- Thich Nhat Hanh, in ”Silence: The Power of Quiet in a World Full of Noise”.
I realized that I was connected to everything. I realized that “God” is not something that’s separate from me but that I am an expression of it. We all are.
“Do you know how sometimes you see a man, and you’re not sure if you want to get in his pants or if you want to cry? Not because you can’t have him; maybe you can. But you see right away something in him beyond having. You can’t screw your way into it, any more than you can get at the golden eggs by slitting the goose. So you want to cry, not like a child, but like an exile who is reminded of his homeland. That’s what Leucon saw when he first beheld Pyrrhus: as if he were getting a glimpse of that other place we were meant to be, the shore from which we were deported before we were born.”
― Mark Merlis, “An Arrow’s Flight”
Growing up in the US I didn’t realize how much beauty would mean to me and how much that longing would push me to travel. I was searching for a vaguely defined need for beauty. In the beginning I mostly conceived of it in physical terms, which remnants of the old preindustrial world still showed forth in their art and architecture. America didn’t have that history so I found myself in France and Italy by the time I was in my early twenties.
Art and images have become more important to me rather than less so as I’ve aged. I actually did feel exiled from something essential when I was growing up in Texas but it took me a long time to identify it. In fact, for me the search for beauty has expanded…