The Soul’s Struggle To Be Real

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Painting by Muriel Massin

“There is a grid of consciousness out of which the dominant systems arise. This grid is very difficult to transcend: it operates on primal survival frequencies even though it uses elaborate and seductive ways to camouflage itself. Its codes and frequencies are governed by the Lords of Number and numerical manipulation and advantage.. The grid makes us believe we must always be counting how much even as we lose the value of true quality. Only the higher frequencies of selfless altruism can dissolve this grid and free us to live for each other. May all beings be free. May all beings be happy.” — James O’Dea

“I am learning to see. I don’t know why it is, but everything enters me more deeply and doesn’t stop where it once used to. I have an interior that I never knew of… What’s the use of telling someone that I am changing? If I’m changing, I am no longer who I was; and if I am something else, it’s obvious that I have no acquaintances. And I can’t possibly write to strangers.”
― Rainer Maria Rilke, The Notebooks of Malte Laurids Brigge

James Hillman said that we should try and find a speech that is pregnant with the ‘voluptuousness’ of the ‘psyche’ and that has the joy and passion of ‘éros’. Put it this way, when Rumi speaks I could listen to him for days. — Jon Wilson

The logic of survival overrides everything, yet the deeper purpose of living has a beating heart beneath that logic. That’s where the poet’s inspiration comes from. That’s a secret conversation between the individual and the Universal that carries on from birth to death. There is a secret love making between the soul and the Anima Mundi. We call it art but we could also call it gardening or cooking or romance or a thousand other things.

The roots go into Love, which is where the soul lives and breathes. Humanity is wrestling with how to reconcile survival with the soul-thinking that is happening at deeper, mostly hidden layers of the mind. Sometimes those levels open up gradually and we change into a person of substance. The process, the logic of it, is mysterious and unpredictable.

Perhaps we go through infinite creations, shedding skins and identities as we learn not to grasp onto each manifestation even though we can’t see where we are going or even where we came from. Meeting each drama in the present with only our character to guide us, we forge our path through infinite lessons and tests, challenges that require loving kindness more than wily strategies. It takes as long as it takes to develop wisdom of the heart. Time is of no concern.

Eventually the struggles of the small self to survive give way to trust of the mystery we are all living. We become increasingly substantial and real.

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What has been growing is the spirit of relatedness, the calm knowledge that love is the source and sustenance of everything. Survival overrides everything else when we are cut off, isolated from the heart of existence. That’s a stage, it’s normal for a while but it’s an illusion. We will go beyond it. It’s foreordained.

I imagine that poets and artists are leading this parade, but there are so many unexpected sensitive souls in the world, from every discipline. We all have souls inhabiting our uniqueness. We are all on the same human journey.

The soul’s journey is a grand drama that we all participate in. We create our individual paths toward a deeper vision. It doesn’t seem to have a conclusion or even a starting point. We just find ourselves walking the path, sometimes losing our way and then finding it again.

At the moment, the drama is heightened. Sickness, starvation and death, caused by fantasies of survival needs has created a theater of catastrophe while those in charge make it worse than it has to be because they imagine survival is built on exclusion and self interest.

This lesson won’t be learned instantly in our part of the world. The vision we have lived by will have a hard time surviving the coming events. Those who are ready for a new vision may be in the minority, but nature may have a plan to change that.

The next few years offer dramatic changes. It’s up to us to foster a broader vision any way we can.

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I occasionally write fiction and also about creativity, loving, language learning and travel. I’m a longtime painter and reader.

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