Off Balance

Stephanie Rew

I am very poorly today & very stupid & hate everybody & everything.

— Charles Darwin, letter to Charles Lyell

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Good judgement comes from experience, and experience comes from bad judgement.

— Rita Mae Brown

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“In this world there is a kind of sadness that does not allow you to shed tears. It’s one of those things you can’t explain to anyone and even if you could, no one would understand you. “And that sadness, unchanging form, is quietly piling up in your heart like snow over a windless night.”

Haruki Murakami, End of the world and a ruthless wonderland

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the words have come and gone,

I sit ill.

the phone rings, the cats sleep.

Linda vacuums.

I am waiting to live,

waiting to die.

I wish I could ring in some bravery.

it’s a lousy fix

but the tree outside doesn’t know:

I watch it moving with the wind

in the late afternoon sun.

there’s nothing to declare here,